Or shall I say, I'm different.
I know nothing here has changed, It's all still familiar. But how do I live the "different me" in this old familiar life now.?
Is it my human nature that can never be satisfied, whether here or abroad? When I was at home, I dreamed of going away. When I was away, I dreamed of being home. And now I am back home, and it feels as if I am in a dream, floating along somewhere in between the two worlds I know. Waiting for WHAT'S NEXT !!??
2 months is not a long time, but it's long enough for God to change your views on life completely. Before I left on this trip, back in July. I remember feeling so scared and uncertain. I prayed that God would start a new beginning in me through this trip. That he would brake my heart for what breaks His.. And he did!
I have no doubt that God completely broke my heart for the people in Zambia. He opened my eyes to the love and spiritual warfare that is surrounding each of us.
A question I get asked alot since being back is, what is different about being back home.?.. And to be honest, it's not the food, or the language or the fact that I can get in my own car and drive 70 mph down the road.. It's the lack of spiritual awareness.
People here in America don't take the time to notice how much of a spiritual warfare takes place in our own lives and those around us. We stay preoccupied with our busy schedules and things we find so important. We forget to take time to pray, thank God, or even to stop and ask a person how their day is and how we can help others. We are selfish.
Its not completely our fault, its the culture we have all grown up in. But it is hard to explain to people the pure love, emotion and compassion i received/ experienced this past summer. Its something you can put into words all you want, but it cant be fully grasped until someone has seen for themselves.
So now I'm home, and the question everyone wants to know is, Whats Next in my life?.. good question!
My answer to this is, I have no earthly idea!
Though i would love some answers at this moment, i have none. All i know is i am willing to whatever God lays ahead of me.
Proverbs 16:9 “A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” (NIV)
Philippians 2:13 “It is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.” (NIV)
Its not completely our fault, its the culture we have all grown up in. But it is hard to explain to people the pure love, emotion and compassion i received/ experienced this past summer. Its something you can put into words all you want, but it cant be fully grasped until someone has seen for themselves.
So now I'm home, and the question everyone wants to know is, Whats Next in my life?.. good question!
My answer to this is, I have no earthly idea!
Though i would love some answers at this moment, i have none. All i know is i am willing to whatever God lays ahead of me.
Proverbs 16:9 “A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” (NIV)
Philippians 2:13 “It is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.” (NIV)
